Guys I’m back, I’m back!!!
Let me give you a little update on life… I survived school (barely) and was able to make all the grades required in order to eventually apply for Nursing School. Y’all, I love school! I love learning, I love the challenge, I love the hard work—I love it all!
Going into school, I felt very well prepared. I knew how to work hard, I knew how to meet deadlines, I knew that I couldn’t just wing it and get good grades (props to anyone out there who can do that! it’s definitely not me.). I knew all that stuff and I felt really well prepared.
What I didn’t realize, however, was how much of my free time would be taken away. I assumed, ‘Oh I’m not working so I’ll have plenty of time to do school and still have some social time.’ WRONG! WRONG! COMPLETELY WRONG! Pretty much all of my time was spent studying anatomy and physiology in order to make the grade I needed (it was totally worth it!). I said “no” to more things this semester than I ever have before. I had self control, I was determined to make good grades, and chose to do school most times instead of hanging with friends.
About half way through the semester though, that started to take a toll. I’m pretty evenly split down the middle between introvert and extrovert. Sometimes I refuel when I’m alone, sometimes when I’m with people. But about half way through the semester, the refueling alone part started to be insufficient. And I got really lonely. I had said “no” to so many things (including church on one too many occasions) in order to do well academically that I actually forgot to care for myself. I got really, really lonely and I needed to be around people. I needed to be around my best friends so I could get encouraged. I was disconnected from people and that was draining me.
Midterms came and went. Fall break came and went. Still no time for refueling. The home stretch was in sight, finals week fast approaching. Lonely little me was just trying to survive. I was just trying to make it until December 8th when I took my last final. My studying increased, my refreshing decreased. Life happened. My emotional capacity to deal with any unexpected event was maxed out. I was so tired and so worn out that I was probably a pain to be around. Then finals week came. I wasn’t really dreading it because I had studied so hard. I was just ready for it to be over so I could rest. Finally, December 8th came and I took my last final at 6pm that night.
And then I cried. I went to bed that night and just let out all my frustration and loneliness and exhaustion. I have never in my life been as exhausted as I was this semester. I was physically, mentally, and really emotionally exhausted. And I told Jesus all about it.
The four full days that I’ve been on break have been incredibly refreshing! I had coffee with my best friend, had such a beautifully refreshing time at church on Sunday, I’ve finished half of this really pretty puzzle, and have spent so much time with my boyfriend! I feel so refreshed and happy!
During this month of break, my goal is to teach myself to relax. I want to learn how to care for myself so that I don’t get burnt out like that again. I am going to take time to intentionally rest during this month. I’m going to drench myself in the Word and immerse myself in our incredible church community. I am going to get in a good habit of being intentional about resting so that i can implement what I’ve learned next semester and not get so worn out.
So here’s to a crazy busy holiday season, but also a crazy good time of rest!
What are some of your favorite ways to rest?! Let me know! I would love to try new ways to rest and reset!
Happy Tuesday everybody!