I’m super excited to be with you guys today! This is the first of a four week series on how to detox your mindset of negativity!
Over the past two months I’ve grown to carry a passion of positivity! That may sound simple, but let me preface it with my own story.
Two months ago my heart was in a place of complete desperation. Every morning I would wake up and dread getting up and facing the day. Sleep was my safe place. It’s where God healed and refreshed me. I hated getting up in the morning. I didn’t want to face my internal emotional pain.
My emotions were out of control and I didn’t know how to get them back under control. Every time I messed up, I would beat myself black and blue with negative words and destructive self talk. Every time I got upset, I would play over in my mind what I did wrong and I would complain to God asking why I kept messing up so much. I would think and say things like, “I’m so dumb. Why do I keep messing up? I’m not good at that. Why do I feel like this? I don’t like myself. I’m not good enough. I’m not smart enough. I have to be better. I have to be a better daughter, sister, friend, girlfriend, student, etc…” It was a continuous cycle.
I had gotten to a place in my heart where my immediate reaction to any type of disappointment was destroying myself with negativity. Every time I messed up or listened to the lies satan whispered (or shouted) at me, I would start to speak death over my situation. However, I didn’t realize it at the time.
I was desperate and spiritually exhausted of trying to work out my emotional pain. I had tried for moths to work it out with Jesus. I didn’t want to bother anyone with my “problems” so I kept it to myself and tried to work it out with Jesus. But I got so tired and worn down that I finally decided to ask for help (which was a huge step for me. i don’t tend to ask for help haha).
So I called on of my dearest friends and mentors and we met up for a good chat over some delightful coffee. At one point in our conversation I said, “I think the problem is that I have absolutely no idea how to give myself grace.”
Her response was genius, “Oh, I think you need to do a negativity fast!”
What on earth is a negativity fast?
Well, it’s exactly what it sounds like! It’s a challenge to resist the temptation of speaking negative things over yourself. When this invitation was placed before me, I thought, “Oh that won’t be too hard. I’m not super negative.” Y’all! It was so much harder than I thought!
As I began the fast, I realized just how negative and crappy the words coming into my mind and even out of my mouth really were.
I had been speaking lifeless, useless, unhealthy things over myself and I didn’t even realize it. So when I stopped speaking those negative things over myself, I almost didn’t know what to do with my words.
It was so freeing! Within a week, I felt like a new person! I began to like myself again. I started seeing my situations more clearly, as opposed to the emotional wreck they had all become. When I stopped speaking negativity, I started feeling better-in my mind and in my body!
Positivity overflowed into other areas in my life too! When I threw negativity away from my mind, I began noticing that my words in general, not just over myself, were more positive!
Two months later, I am still going strong with the negativity fast! It would be a lie if I told you that I haven’t said a negative word over myself since that day at the coffee shop with my friend. However, I can say that I am more quickly to speak truth over myself and my situations than I was two months ago! My mindset is changing! My mindset is being renewed! My mindset is going from glory to glory!
Words are powerful! You have the power to distinguish life and death with your words. So what are you speaking? What are you speaking over others? What are you speaking over yourself?
This week, I challenge you to ditch the negative self talk and join me in a negativity fast! I promise, it will change who you are in an unbelievably amazing way!
I love you all so dearly and I pray that this blesses you in a huge way! Check back next Friday for some practical tips on how to keep your positive pants on!